So today I decided to take the Daily Prompt (what a fabulous idea) and post on Reach. It is a word that resonates with me at the moment, as I reach in many directions.
Rather than wax lyrical about them all, I decided first to list, what I as a Mum of a just turned two year old (how did that happen) and a soon to be 10 month old, felt reach meant to me:
- Milestones. With babies and toddlers there are milestones to be reached. With Edward I willed them to come and eagerly checked each one off. With Beatrix, a baby in a hurry, I am willing her to slow down. Wishing each milestone would delay. At 10 months and nearly walking, I wish she would stay a baby a little while longer.
- The wall. Of tiredness. Of patience. Of joy. I reach all of them, everyday. Realising the wall won’t crush you has been one of the hardest, and most worthwhile, lessons of parenthood.
- For friends. Its true it takes a village. I reach for mine daily, on bad days hourly. They always give. I am eternally grateful for them.
- My limit. Then exceed it. I am more than I ever knew I could be. I have felt worse than I knew possible. I have felt happier than it should be possible to be.
- For the future. It now means more to me than I knew it could. I want to live in the present, but I am reaching for a better future for my children, further for them, a safer world for them, happiness for them.
- For myself. In the first year of Edward’s life I lost myself, Tori to Mummy. Add Beatrix and I was truly lost. Now, I am finding myself within Motherhood. Working, friendships, therapy. They are all helping.
Half a dozen thoughts inspired by one word. What a lovely reflection for a Sunday afternoon. I do know, as Edward turned two yesterday, I have reached a new place of contentment with myself. I am proud of the little boy he is becoming, of the work I am doing both with B.E Administered and Carry Together. This place as been a fight to reach. I am proud to be here. I am grateful to be here thanks to such amazing friends and family. A depth of gratitude I will never be able to fully express but I hope they know.